But 6 years ago, I couldn't physically mow my lawn without taking 2 or 3 breaks. I have a small lawn. It takes 25 minutes, tops, to mow.
I have an anniversary coming up in a couple of days. Below is a post I made on a blog I kept before this monumental event took place. Whenever I need perspective, I re-read this. I wrote it on 5/01/06 . . .
I want to ride a roller coaster again. I want to feel someone fit their arms all the way around me to give me a hug. I want to not spend the week before a flight wondering if the person stuck next to me will mind if I have to raise the armrest to fit in the seat. I want to be able to participate in a run/walk event that raises money for charity. I want to stop having to always find a place to sit down and rest. I want to visit someone's house without first worrying that their furniture might not be strong enough to sit on. I want to drive my car with the seat belt fully fastened, and not rigged behind me. I want to walk my dog further than half a block. I want to have difficulty floating when I get into the pool. I want to go to the movies and have room in the seat beside me for my purse. I want to go to work late because I don't have to worry about getting their so early just so I can get a parking spot as close to the door as possible. I want to wear red and not feel like a giant red tomato. I want a closet full of colors. I want my mum to stop worrying that I will die from morbid obesity. I want to have saggy skin. I want to stop feeling 80 years old.
I want to live.
I want to live.